introduction

it is 2026 and I'm living in Minneapolis. as you can imagine, things are...a little tense right now.

lately, what I've recognized is that what I need to be doing is documenting what my life is right now because who knows how long it'll be like this. who knows who will forget about it and what I'll forget with it behind me.

with that, I'm not going to be a doomer beyond what the facts are. the fact is there are choppers circling the shooting with the national guard less than a mile away from my house. my friends are regularly getting tear-gassed. I'm going to brunch at places that are donating proceeds to the immigration legal fund. life is different.

and what you may or may not know about is that I guess you'd call me an artist. I've made art and went to school for it, mainly filmmaking. I've done a lot of different kind of art, but my focus was in writing. for over a decade now, I've had multiple projects that I've wanted to make and release, but the world has consistently been not a position to enable those things to be made.

so, what this website is going to be is a winding web of a project. my plan is that I just release what I have and stop focusing so heavily on making it perfect. there's a lot on my mind and this is going to be my work for right now, including this website. so, the website is going to be a little kooky. I'm going to try and work out the kinks, then share some creative stories alongside some real ones as I go. likely some resourcing as well.

y'know, I also hope it's healing because I don't really think I'm in a spot to talk about how I feel. currently, it's in the primordial space of sensation in my body of solid tension. in my experience, doing a task that requires that turned-off part of your brain can shake things loose. this would be good for that.

you might be asking why I didn't pick a site that has an easy template to follow like WordPress or substack. to that, I have tried both and they are utterly boring. they do not spark joy. what does spark joy is imagining creating a consistent challenge that I can attack at my leisure, while also getting better at executing on things that I want to make.

you also may ask what I hope to accomplish. in my estimation, this is my scream into the void. these are the manifestations of my thought in this direct moment, along with my train of thought with surrounding connective tissue like games I like or stories that come from this. I dunno; people say that art is political and makes an impact. we're going to see how true all of that is and what I want to make out of this.

it is also a great documentation on how my specific creative process works because heaven knows I begged and demanded anyone tell me something besides "morning pages" and "writers write." for the neurodivergent brain, namely one that seems to be caught in the junction between autism and adhd, you want to create something very specific with clear rules and expectations, but also it has to be spontaneous and new that you'll come back to it. as you can imagine, it is a nightmarish process to undertake.

but hey, at least now I won't have to do it alone. welcome to the ride.

-sisi